On being unkind to my body
I've been on a mission to cut the amount of sugar I consume, which is really the no. 1 reason I feel as unhealthy as I do. That, and sitting on my ass all day. I haven't really taken an honest look at how much of it I eat, mostly because it's always in the form of chocolate which somehow doesn't seem that bad compared to if I was gorging on, say, cookies and cakes and pastries stuffed with custards and creams...And I also don't drink soda at all, which I've used as an "see, I'm beeing so good and conscious about what I put in my body!" excuse...Without thinking about it. But looking into my trash bin at work and at home last week, I was weirdly surprised by how many chocolate wrappers had collected in there.
Earlier this month I also noticed a darkish crease on the back of my neck that I at first attributed to spending time out in the sun this summer, and having sensitive skin that is prone to hyperpigmentation. But on googling it, I'm slightly worried that it might by Acanthosis Nigricans, a skin condition caused by insulin spillover. Yikes is right. Specially considering my mother was diagnosed with Type 2 diabetes two years ago out of nowhere. And yes, I have been very irresponsible eating any kind of sweet at all, knowing this.
So the goal has been to drop refined sugars and starches, and it's proving EXTREMELY difficult. My body is literally addicted to it. I've been jittery and jumpy all week, jamming my mouth with almonds and cheese instead, sipping on black tea instead of my improvised mocha (Girardelli hot chocolate with milk and coffee...). I know I'll come to love these snacks one day, but right now, they're just not hitting the right spot.
A couple of other things to get me on the right track towards better health:
1. Appointment with doc and get checked out to make sure I haven't given myself diabetes...Scary thought.
2. Join a gym and find a sport/activity that resonates with me - going to learn rock climbing at City Climbers Club next week! I'll be the brown chick stuck on the wall a foot off the ground.
